How long will I swim?

Today I'll finally catch avatar. I hope. Anyway aren't I up early? :) I slept early last night, majorly proud of myself.


Okay just my two cents worth.

I hope both of them confront each other. And have this huge ass mega bitch fight, complete with hair-ripping and gutteral screaming. Yknow like just thrash everything out there and then. Instead of having this cyberwar where they pretend to be so above each other on their respective blogs. Well okay first there is shila who has tried to pull this kinda stunt with me before. You'd think by now she'd realize all this effort over a guy, doesn't exactly magnify her own self-worth. Then there's atiqah, did I spell that right? I think she has more of an excuse. It's like her first time. But she's not your average act-innocent teen either. Rather easy to hate so I guess I see where shila is coming from. Mmph anyway like I said. They should just fight it out. Like physically. Then we can end this argument about who's fatter, cause obviously the fatter one will win, if only by sheer massiveness. Oh but atiqah should remove all her piercings beforehand, it could get very messy if they get accidentally torn off. As a passive, haha albeit amused, onlooker, I seriously think that's the best course of action. Ahh this brings back memories. Remember the whole cheena penyet saga? Good times.

What happened to the part where we fall in love?

Today I made my way down to EY to sign the contract. Used the opportunity to mingle smore with the other temp staff. I'm getting really psyched for this attachment :) After that I met Kev to do a little catching up. Weirdly, I was slightly more subdued than usual, and we didn't launch into our normal soul-searching conversation. But he's doing good. I'm so excited for all the IB people! Results in 8 days! Wow i'd be flippin if I were one of them. Shit scary stuff.

I can't make my own decisions, or make any with precision. Well maybe you should tie me up, so I don't go where you don't want me.

What happened to the part where we fall in love?

It's just my humble opinion, but maybe you should stop walking into this death trap right here.

I'm in so much trouble.

If I were a month, I’d be November
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Thursday
If I were a time of day, I’d be 6.38pm
If I were a planet, I’d be Neptune
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Jellyfish
If I were a direction, I’d be Up
If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Bed
If I were a liquid, I’d be Water
If I were a gemstone, I’d be Jade
If I were a tree, I’d be a Willow
If I were a tool, I’d be a Knife
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be Sunny and Windy
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Bass Guitar
If I were a color, I’d be Yellow
If I were an emotion, I’d be Passion
If I were a fruit, I’d be a Grapefruit
If I were a sound, I’d be a Baby's Laughter
If I were an element, I’d be Fire
If I were a car, I’d be a Jeep
If I were a food, I’d be Ice Cream
If I were a place, I’d be Santorini, Greece
If I were a material, I’d be Cotton
If I were a taste, I’d be Spicy
If I were a scent, I’d be Chocolate
If I were an object, I’d be a Journal
If I were a body part, I’d be the Collarbone
If I were a facial expression, I’d be Bemused
If I were a song, I'd be Remix to Ignition by R Kelly
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be 5-inch Heels

Sigh.

Okay so mum calls me from office.

Mum: You said you're gonna give away some of your books right
Me: Yah
Mum: What level are those books?
Me: JC..
Mum: You should hold on to those til results come out right
Me: You want me to repeat JC?
Mum: I don't want you to repeat, I'm just saying you might need them again..
Me: (thinking of all my notes and files I've already thrown out into the rubbish bin. like permanently.) Well if I had to repeat, I'd go to poly and not do JC again.. Right?
Mum: Well whichever la just hold on to them first

silence

Me: Okay okay yeah I'll keep them.

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW.

Unacceptable Behavior

I had such a workout today. Of all trainings I had to go back for the one with intervals. I almost hurled my non-existent breakfast up. That's how unfit I am. Oh well. I shall just have to do something about it.

My upperlip sports a tiny bruise now, and God knows why.

The thing about being young and senseless.

Her: What would I do without you?
Him: You'll never have to find out.

It isn't that hard to understand why I'm not bothered about the missing piece. The putting together of the puzzle was the main point, not obtaing a perfect picture. I don't really care if we ever find it. The tiny gap does not mar the delightfulness of our work.

Yet. What I would give, to be able to let go the little inadequacies. Is perfection too much to ask of you? What I would give, to be able to simply enjoy the ride for the ride. Let go of my standards once in awhile, and appreciate smaller things.



But you are so inadequate. So below my standards. So much smaller than the greatness I had in mind.

Talk back trembling lips.

Today has been ridiculously short. Maybe it's cause I got out of bed at 2. Today has also been ridiculously fun. Cause all I did was stay home, finish the puzzle (which has one piece missing, a la Mrs Tan's one 4 years ago), and slack on the computer. Life is bright and shiny.

I'm resolving to go back for floorball training AT LEAST ONCE. I'm going to MAKE TIME. It doesn't matter that I'm crazy unfit right now. JUST GO, THERESE. Shuffle your appointments around and GO.

Speaking of unfit, insert sigh, today has also been a I'm-made-of-blubber day. Time to do something about it. Muscles degenerating at an unhealthy rate.

Smile :)

Cry me a river.

My bodyclock needs serious re-adjustment. I've been reaching home super late and sleeping at odd hours. Night eats into day, and the cycle repeats. Unhealthy. I won't survive when work starts.

Anyway I don't know how much I haven't updated, kinda lost track of the things I blog about. Let's see, last night was the BBQ at JT's place. My first foray into rockband. I loved the beatles' one :) It was nice to see all the seniors again and stuff, had a super long chat with soffie, whom I'm determined to help cause he deserves it. Before the BBQ I met august to exchange gifts and catch up. Well we did that for 5 hours, effectively. He was patient enough to walk with me all of serangoon to find JT's place. Okay it wasn't ALL of serangoon, but surely felt like almost all of it. I love his gift, I told you books and CDs are foolproof to me, it's playing in my living room right now as my family finishes up our 1000 piece puzzle.

Yes, that. We started at 12noon on christmas day and still haven't finished. I think it's a fun way to pass time. In fact, I'm gonna get out of bed and go help them now :) Good afternoon blogosphere!

Pushing my luck.

Everybody plays the game.

Audrey and Madelynn. My two closest friends from primary school. We had a sorta reunion get-together last night. And it only made me think, how wonderful it'd be if Maddie could stay here for longer. And we could do more stuff together. Something about their company, it feels right. Comforting, sort of. Haha I don't know it feels like a tiny voice in my head telling me that though I've changed so much and forgotten most of what happened all those years ago, a small part of me is still the same. When we're discussing something or just chatting, it's just jarring, startling almost, how different we are now. Hmm but we still fit, somehow. Childhood magic.

Anyway, we still had a rather tragic misadventure. Haha sigh. The things we can get away with just cause we're young.

"I wonder how long I can keep this up. We're so wrongly perfect. It's a shame I'm a dream."

Oh yes, please.

I'm gonna be at Audrey's tonight til tomorrow.

I think people who dot their I's with hearts, have some serious issues.

There's no chance of my dreams materializing.

Because I have the wildest most impossible ones. And I haven't seen you in what, a month? Just a single text message from you and my imagination goes into overdrive. Why??

John Lennon snorting coke.

Heheh.

Life's all shiny and happy, and exciting. Real exciting. No day is a typical day :) I'm just missing some people.

So, tonight's one of those nights y'know? Yeah, you know the feeling. Reminiscing about days when it wasn't so hard to keep in touch.